The Kingdom of God is not fragile, emotional, or reactive. It is immovable. This matters for today’s exhausted, traumatized human person. We do not begin healing by exploring our wounds. That would only blind our vision. We begin by recovering the truth that God is throne-first, not problem-first. Your life rests on a mountain that does not move.

Hildegard was a a contemplative mystic whose intimacy with God overflowed into charismatic gifts. Her mystical seeing informed her prophetic speaking. Her prophetic speaking was sustained by her contemplative prayer. Her healing wisdom flowed from her theological cosmology (Gr. cosmos = order). Her music expressed her mystical understanding of creation’s order. In Hildegard, the charismatic and mystical are not separate traditions, schools of spirituality, they are one continuous movement of grace.

You would think not much happened yet there was a heart shift aligning with intuitive expectation of rest becoming as real as the coniferous trees around us. You would think we did not pray a lot, yet there were voices rising up in praise despite or with the feelings that were taken as incense. You would think teaching was not that life changing yet we all felt the resilience and strength building up while the doubts, obsessive thoughts and lack of clarity were winding down.

If you’ve spent any time around Christian parents, pastors, ministry leaders, or entrepreneurs, you’ve probably noticed a trend: exhaustion. The call to shepherd, guide, and serve others is a beautiful one but often it comes at the cost of personal health and joy. The truth is, the number one need for Christian leaders today isn’t more strategies, tools, or leadership conferences, AI apps or IG tid-bits. It’s sustainable vitality (viriditas).

We often speak of vitamin deficiencies, hormonal imbalances, or gut dysbiosis as root causes of sickness. But what if one of the deepest deficiencies in the modern human experience is love? Modern neuroscience confirms what the Scriptures and Christian tradition have long taught: we are created for Love, and its absence harms us at the most fundamental level. Emotional neglect and social isolation are now recognized as risk factors for premature death on the same level as smoking or obesity.

Oxidative stress can dull your spiritual sensitivity. You pray but feel numb. You know what you should believe, but it doesn’t feel alive. Chronic physical and emotionally provoked inflammation can make spiritual desolation worse. Your nervous system can no longer distinguish between a true crisis and the demands of your inbox. And your soul? It can not wind down to rest in God.

Modern science helps us understand what was happening in His body. Under intense stress, the brain’s amygdala activates a “fight or flight” response, flooding the body with cortisol and adrenaline. In Jesus, the magnitude of this stress wasn’t just a personal burden. He was preparing to bear the sin, sorrow, and suffering of all humanity. The crushing weight wasn’t symbolic, it was real, pressing Him to the brink of death. He said, “My soul is very sorrowful, even to death” (Matthew 26:38)

The difference between secular or pagan manifesting, prosperity Gospel’s name it - claim it and I trust You, Jesus lies in the source of power, the role of human effort, and the ultimate goal.